Lord I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the one that guides my heart
Chorus:
Lord, I need You, oh I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
Where sin runs deep, Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are Lord I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
Yes where You are Lord I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
So teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus You're my hope and stay
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus You're my hope and stay
I start my update with this song, because it explains my heart in every way. This past month I have experienced God’s grace like never before. Oh, He is so good. Though my sin runs deep, His grace runs even deeper.
Last month I spoke about my many challenges and struggles I have faced this year during my time here, and I stand again proclaiming and declaring that though my heart and flesh may fail that God is still the strength of my heart and my portion forever. I have seen the hand of the Lord work so mightily not only in my own life, but also in the lives of the people He has entrusted me with.
Last year I discipled and mentored a young lady that at the end of my time had walked away from her relationship with the Lord and was being totally influenced by her surroundings and I left here last year asking myself and God many questions: “Was what I was teaching her all in vain, and a waste of time? Was I doing something wrong?”
The Lord quieted my heart with all my questions and doubts and told me,
“Just trust Me, Ellen.”
So, that’s what I chose to do. When I arrived back here in May I couldn’t find her anywhere. I asked her friends and the people in the area, but no one knew where she was. Once again Jesus told me; “Just trust Me, Ellen.” So during the course of these six months, I have continued to pray for her and trust the Lord.
One month ago the Lord brought her back into my life. It was a feeling that I had never experienced. I felt like the Lord had brought my lost daughter back. I glimpsed a taste of the prodigal son when his son came walking down the dusty road discouraged and ready to serve his father as a slave, but the Father responded in the opposite way. He ran to his son, he took him in his arms and kissed him. He said “this son of my mine was lost, but now has been found!”
Oh, I tasted that joy as I went to this young lady and wrapped my arms around her. In that moment I experienced a whole different level of love that Jesus has for me as my Heavenly Father when I go back to Him after living in my sin and guilt.
I am so blessed to able to testify of the Lord’s faithfulness, God is really at work in this young lady’s heart. She is open and truly has a desire to follow Jesus. I have begun to disciple and walk with her, and I only thank the Lord, because it’s a huge honor that He has entrusted me with her life. Right now it seems that her life has more questions, than answers, but I know that Jesus will continue to redeem her life as she walks in obedience.
I ask you to pray for her as she is going to have to make a lot of hard choices now as she chooses to follow Jesus. Pray also for me, that God will grant me His divine wisdom and discernment as I counsel and guide her.
I share this with you to encourage you to never give up on the people that God has placed in your life. Last year when God placed this young lady on my heart, I knew it wasn’t my own idea or thoughts, it was His plan. But I started to doubt and question when things weren’t going the way I had hoped and planned. But God’s thoughts are higher then my thoughts, His ways are higher then my ways. I love how God works! Its so easy as sinful human beings to want to take the credit ourselves for the work that God does, and I look back and see it would have been so easy last year to take the credit for what I wanted God to do in her life, but now what can I say? It’s ALL God. It’s not about me or what I did, am doing or will do. It’s all about God’s glory. It’s all about His kingdom.
Praise the Lord for His grace.
